I’m a proud dropout, of the diet industry … and this is why …
It is reported that teenage girls are starting to engage in “severely disordered eating behaviours” at an earlier age. In children aged 8 to 10, approximately half the girls and one-third of the boys were unhappy with their size.
HEY MOMS & DADS. READ THAT AGAIN!
Where do you think this comes from? For me it started at home. My mother was soooo scared (still is) of the word fat. Like so much that we don’t have a relationship because she can’t contain herself from saying hurtful shit to people because well, she’s unhappy in her own skin.
Growing up I was told how fat I was, how ashamed she was to be around me and how I’d never grow up to do anything worth a shit as long as I was fat. And I believed it. God how I believed it for so, so long.
I remember dinners where she’d cook for the family but I had to sit there w/a dry ass baked potato or a can of tuna (I fucking HATE tuna for the record) because I wasn’t an acceptable body size. I’m not even mad at her for that shit because I’m pretty sure my grandma was the same way. I’m not excusing her behavior but we do what we’re taught don’t we? Most of the time right?
Unless you’re someone like me and decide that it’s ok to love the body you’re in. It doesn’t mean I’m glorifying fucking obesity or saying “Hey everyone get fat as fuck!”. It means – we live one fucking life and by god I’m gonna be happy. Fuck the rest of the mess.
The diet industry is DESIGNED to make you fail. You know that right? I see so, so many wonderful people on my social media obsessing over diets right now. Like really – stop! Although this post is already long as hell I have a tiny story for you ….
My entire life I’ve been on fad/yoyo diets. I’ve never really been ‘thin’ but besides things like cancer and fibromyalgia (which skinny AND fat people get – I know – hard to believe right!?!?) I’ve always been really healthy. Even at my highest weight the doctor seemed almost stunned (yes – he’s no longer my doctor girl!). Guess what!?!? None EVER worked! I was never happy. Even when I’d get to my ‘goal’ it wasn’t ever good enough.
You can chase that thought of “when I get to ____ I’ll be happ(ier)” but I PROMISE you you’ll never catch whatever it is you’re chasing. I lived it.
I stopped modeling & even really putting myself out there much when I kept ‘failing’. I was defeated. None of these diets worked. You know … diets create eating disorders, right? That’s pretty much what you’re buying into. You’re buying yourself a mental illness that you might not even ever get rid of. Worth your hard earned money and mental health!?! I totally got off topic but I wanted to mention this – when I stopped worrying about all of that shit, like ALL of it. When I started LIVING – like REALLY stopped sweating the standards society (even your family, spouse, friends) try to shove in your face – I WANTED to go do shit, I wanted to be more active. I didn’t even REALIZE – like I didn’t even TRY to lose any weight anymore and I lost over 100 pounds. And honestly when I looked in the mirror I saw the same exact body because I had learned to love it and not look at every single flaw, every single time. When I started doing all of the things I WISHED or was WAITING to do I realized that I’d wasted SO MUCH TIME on all of these fucked up ways of thinking. And I genuinely FEEL SO good now.
41% of “normal dieters” progress to pathological dieting. Give up the diets, they don’t work. All they are doing is perpetuating this fucked up body dysmorphia you got going on in your head!